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 omgomgomg!  eeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkk TOMORROW is the last day of 2009!
I'm kinda anxious and wondering what would my 2010 year would be like?
During my 2009 year,
January?
I had quite some time suffocating with the teachers of form 3. LOLLLL.
was worried cos i didn't studied yet :P
February?
I don't really remember...
OH! stupid blind date for valentine's wtf
And i went to thailand, yeah.
March?
Oopssayy i totally forgot.
April?
same. forgotten.
May?
-__________-
June?
Heck, i forgot!
Oh now i remembered! This was the stupidest month i should say. Meetin some losers who twisted my life until 2 weeks ago then they stopped coz i screwed them!!
LOLLL nyahahahah! :D
July?
wth i forgotttttt -_______-
August?
I don't know. -___________________________-
September?
SIGH. this was the month i became emotional. LOL.
and my birthday was celebrated with all my godsis! well, almost all.
October?
damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn PMR.
[ i hate my result omfg ]
November?
HOLIDAYSSSSSSS!
i spent money like a shopaholic @.@
and i think i went out everyday?
Oh, and i entered the uhhh.. LCC! :D
December!
december is coming to an end! i had lotsa fun this month.
Lookin forward to 2010 to enjoy my life better :D
 too much to post about LOL >.<
a very big HELLO!!!
(:OMG seriously, i have TOO MUCH to post about.
erm erm erm erm . . .
* Mhs Graduation Night
* I-Night
* Outings?
* Christmas Eve
* Err... My thoughts? [ nahh. its boring. haha]
* And PMR result day -.-
I totally hate my result. not dislike but hate!
gonna post many pictures up. but lazy la wei. HAHA
AND!
Merry Xmas && Happy Birthday to my childhood friend, MANDY OOI!
happy sweet 15th.
hope everything will turn out fine for you!
LOVE YA ALOT! (:
untitled Hmm.. i went to mhs graduation night. and installation night too. will update bout that later. sibeh no mood la weii now.. . yeah i'm anxious for my result. but now, feel so moodless. feeling neutral. don't understand certain stuffs. not anxious anymore.
I am in a peace state of mind now!
awhh i just wanna relaxxxx and chillaxxxxxx
i♥youbaby,  |
I LOVE my criminal.
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I looked so 'qian da'
:D
Don't you feel like slappin me? :P
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Awwhh
walk, walk, fashion baby,
work it, move that bitch, crazzayyy
I want your love, and i want your revenge.
I'm in a bad romance
:P
love can conquer whatever it might takes now's 3.13 a.m
today is 13 dec 2009.
It should be a happy day.
but it turned out to be the day i've always wanted to avoid the most
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I don't know what is happening to me anymore.
callin ivy in the middle of the night to calm myself and stop my tears from flowing.
luckily she's not like other ppl. luckily she's not that type of ppl that see me as emo and crazy
i'm not crazy.
i just want things to be alright.
i just want things to be back to normal.
is that too much to ask for?
is that too much?
I won't take sleeping pills anymore as i promised you, wh, reuben, ys, ivy and aaron edi to whoever who are reading this, i don't care how you look at me. this is what i feel. this is my blog.
yes i'm emotional at times because i'm human.
i'm not like other ppl who have perfect lives.
i'm not like other ppl who have so many ppl to count on even when they're just a lil sad.
i'm not self pitying.
i'm just explaining the fact.
now, i even think i'm crazy d.if only i can write chinese,
i would have written all these in chinese to explain my feelings clearer and better.
maybe i have a bad temper.
yeah i do but i've always tried to control it since i love you
i've tried many ways.
uncountable ways to change myself to a better person for you
but you said you're not good enough for me.
why?i thought you said " perfect born in lover's eyes " if you love someone, the imperfect person may look totally perfect for you because you love them.
is love a very hard feeling to accept ma?
i thought love is kind and caring.
you said you take promises seriously and will never break them now you're saying you're sorry and you've decided to break them
if you knew this was going to happen,
i hope you wouldn't give me such high hopes till i can't see what's infront of me besides you
everyone may call me a dumbass for loving a person i should not love.
but sorry to everyone, i chose to love this person.
__________________________________________________________________________today,
before you came,
i talked to a new friend i made today.
i asked her
" Whoa, you're quite old already. Don't you have a boyfriend? "
She shooked her head.
" Nah. I don't feel like having one. Haha. I used to have one last time. We spent every single day together.
We were classmates. During school hours, we hang out everywhere together. After school, he'll come over to my place and we'll have lunch together and do homework till around 10 to 11 pm only he'll go back "me?*shocked* " Wow, then why isn't he with you now? " her
" Well, he kinda dumped me. Maybe because I didn't really give him some space "
Then I told her, " Its alright to love someone but we're having our own life too. Example, you have a interest in dancing. But he complained that you didn't really spent time with him. So, you let go your career and give all your time to him. But one day, he suddenly break off with you. And. you're done. Hmmm.. I wouldn't want that to happen to me. Altho I said that love should not affect our lives but I can't deny it wouldn't affect mine. Maybe I gave my love to the max " Yes, we're too young for love. Yes, we're too immature to stable our relationship
Yes, we're too young to think about all these
Yes, we're childish and may frequently fight.
That might hurt ourself in the end.
but i don't care. _________________________________________________________________________ And I thought maybe my sis would understand me. She said that what she's doing is all just for my own good. Yes, i trust that but,
I have feelings too.
Actually i'm weaker than i look.
And I actually thought at last everything started to be alright. From the beginning i typed this post, my tears never stop flowing. Since 1 i already started. This feeling is ain't no different than the feeling which we call ; disappointed. weird cravings recently, i have weird cravings in the middle of the night! @.@! OMGG suddenly, the smell of KFC came out, suddenly, the smell of kimchi came out, or maybe, sushi? or maybe ice cream? or maybe the smell of i dont know what but it smells nice. HAHA! once, i controlled myself to NOT enter KFC. but.......... haha. cannot la. MUST enter. when i finally bought what i wanted, i was SMILING TO MYSELF wth didnt knew that food can make me happy too. hehe 你的回话凌乱着 情绪摸名地拉扯... 我还爱你呢? 假装没事了.. 爱情面临选择 你冷了 倦了我哭了 真的痛了 怎么了 你累了 我懂了 不说了 那些爱过的感觉都太深刻 我都还记得 要怎么停呢 | 我到了这个时候还是一样 夜里的寂寞容易叫人悲伤 我不敢想的太多 因为我一个人 迎面而光的月光拉长身影 走在漫无目的的街 我没有你的消息 因为我在想你 爱我别走 如果你说你不爱我 不要听见你真的说出口 再给我一点温柔 ————————————————– 就在今晚抹去对方的肯定 夜里的寂寞容易叫人悲伤 我没有你的消息 因为我一个人 迎面而光的月光拉长身影 一个人走在漫无目的的街 我没有你的消息 因为我在想你 爱我别走 如果你说你不爱我 不要听见你真的说出口 再给我一点温柔 | I'm so sad la really. what the hell. everything is like so wrong. i need a break. firstly, what is wrong laaa weiii.... this is how you treat me? fine. fine. fine... i'm quietly slippin away from your life. it's so obvious that everyone knows it. if you don't feel it, you are obviously not a human LOL. now you say its regarding to the uc. hell NO! i did NOT put my personal problems in uc. hell shuddup and stop saying im so immature. you said we have no problem. then you say now the problem is ME. do you know what you've said? you said that I'm TOO IMMATURE to say things. so now am i saying things? not only me felt that. others felt it too. we just kept quiet. kept it to ourselves maybe because we think that we think too much and kinda sensitive. but NO! it came out to be true. whenever you say something, make you sure you do it. but slowly, i feel the way you treat me.. is not right at all. i thought bout this OVER a BILLION times already. every people have their limit. i have mine too. you also have yours. but i never betrayed you. never. ever. you said the problem is ME. okay lo. me??! you said i think too much. simply think. haha. LOL! i dont wanna say much. i hope you wil change. secondly, wtf la. another problem. you're too mentally selfish your lover have to talk to you you you you you and YOU ONLY. is that wrong that i'm your lover's good friend? is that wrong? you tell me la which part is wrong! i'm just advicing you in a serious way cos i want you to realize your lover is hurt, not only hurt, stupidly HURT by you. suffered so much. cried so much. because of your pessimistic attitude. what type of crap man. i cannot stand it. i will say out wan. esp when the victim is my good friend now my friendship and hers has almost ended because of your childish pessimistic attitude. thank you la wei. third! you say im the most important person for you since march till now... we are quite close. but i'm not your lover. please. you are saying i accused you for treatin me very special? hahahaha! well well, i dont know what you are thinking. yes i am very busy. not i dont wanna layan or care bout you i care bout you but you ended up being childish like others too. i thought you wil be more understanding than others. i have so many things to take care of. my life isnt bout msging only you ok. fourth! what the heck! whenever you want something you'll only come and find me. you've changed la. i dont put any hopes on you ad... fifth! i feel like dead. thanks to these people. i will never forget and will appreciate it. DAMN! |
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