感觉不到

feelings? complications? comparations? doubtness?

2010-09-19T00:32:00.000+08:00

jealous? yeahhhh, maybe I am.
jealous of how happy people are at all times .
What is happenin right now? I really don know.
I guess we've lost our warmth.
why?
I don know.
At the same time, I need my best friend badly.
But my best friend is yours, too.
what the heck?!
i know,
its weird.
nevermind,
maybe,
i'll just,
go away.
then, no doubtness will appear again
never, never will.
feel like cryin ,
feel like crawlin down.
feel like sittin, starin at people
....
people that are happy.

why?

its like.
everythin that's going round round round and round has just stopped.

2010-09-18T01:03:00.003+08:00

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2010-09-18T01:00:00.002+08:00

2010-09-18T00:58:00.002+08:00

100th post :)

2010-09-18T00:45:00.000+08:00

random

ILOVEYOU :)

do you love me back, too?

xoxo,

me <3

run!

2010-09-16T01:27:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I feel like running away,

away, away...

far, far, awayyy,

Hope you can run along with me (:

2010-09-06T23:21:00.002+08:00

he says he's havin trouble with his ex.
sigh :\
WTF lah.
WHAT A DAY! what is wrong with today?!

2010-09-02T22:09:00.000+08:00

am actually hiding.
is life really just a drama? just to show people the best of you? or to show yourself that you are happy with whatever you have? will anyone be happy enough with what they have? i don't think so. holding on, holding on. i have no mood to talk.

randoms, much

2010-09-02T20:23:00.000+08:00

RANDOMS for TODAY

Me : Teacher arrrrrrr! Solly solly, me no bring chemis book today *smiles*

Teacher : WHAT! all the books you bring except chemis *shows angry face*

Me : *still smiling* hehe. teacher, don't lah angry :)

Teacher : *still bu shuang* [ raises her voice] go lah sit at your place! I'll find a way to kill you later!

Me : [shocked] why teacher? yer, so baddd XD

Teacher : [feel irritated]

Heard a ji dan gao wira car passin by,

guess what?

on the BOOM BOOM POW song effin' LOUDD wei!

&& in a very quiet house area -,-

stupid ah beng people.

Finally, realize now what I should do.

I don't act according to what I feel most of the time anymore.

I'm not the OLD me no more.

I've changed, I admit.

I don't give a hell shit about you fakers.

I don't lie, I don't cheat,

It's in my DNA.

Stop crawlin lies over me,

Cause I might push karma towards you, betch.

I can't wait for tomorrow :D

I'm happy enough, too realize so many things before its too late,

TOO LATE.

2010-09-01T23:49:00.000+08:00

imsonia is such a betch :S
LOL, not blamin imsonia.
just,
i feel my own best friend backstabbed me.
FUCK.
i really dont know who should i trust anymore.
you said you hate her, yet you so close to her? -,-
i'm just takin it easy, to avoid arguements.
maybe this hol is just the right time for me to take a break.
i had enough.
family? and friends? and some pathetic people? -,-
i'm so tired la. okay.
sick of playin ya'll immature games. fuck it. shut up and let me go.

2010-08-31T00:46:00.000+08:00

寒風經過院子裡的枝椏

也冷卻了我手中的鮮花

2010-08-31T00:39:00.000+08:00

望着你　

慢慢忘记你,

如果再重来　
　会不会稍嫌狼狈
　爱是不是不开口才珍贵

再给我两分钟

　让我把记忆结成冰
　　别融化了眼泪

　你妆都花了要我怎么记得

　记得你叫我忘了吧　

　记得你叫我忘了吧
　　你说你会哭　
　不是因为在乎

lunch at pizza hut :D

2010-08-29T17:43:00.000+08:00

currently at pizza hut! new jj's :D

can onlineeeeee. wahahhaaha

YEAH!

2010-08-26T19:19:00.000+08:00

lalalalalaaaaa

I'm in lurveeeeeeeee with...

.....

THIS!!!

yeaaahhh babeeyy

WHAAAAATTTTT O_O

2010-08-26T19:10:00.000+08:00

!!!

no way.

I've got FOURTY-ONE DOCUMENTS TO TYPE.

Teacher, why are you being so unfair to meeeeeee? i mean, us! :D

I was going to type and... my friend called me to take a look at those...

oh-my-gawwwwddd-freakin-prettaayy-clothes!

I WAS EFFIN DISTRACTED WITH IT!

as usual :P

no! nooooooooo! must NOT LOOK! NO NO NOOOOOOOO!!!!

HAHAHA!

家人

2010-08-22T00:35:00.000+08:00

why? why you said i'm the cause of every prob in home? you say, i'm the one who made our family nt happy, who you think you are. i didnt do anythin, i jus wanted to on the tv. then you don hav to shout at me, literally screamed at me! i also hav feelings. you everyday boss me around yet you stil can tel dad tht why you must giv way to the younger ones. wtf you talkin. im the idiot who everyday follow your orders when you everyday ugut to hit me. wei xie wo. you slapped me, hit me before. i wil never forget the pain. you everyday jiang hua hen xiang bu shuang wo men mei yi ke. jus bcause you never get to go uk and study, you think our family like others? so fuckin rich? jus bcos dad gave you opportunity to go taylor's and not mmu? excuse me la. dad giv you opportunity to study taylor's is very good edi okay. now you wanna go uk? then i no need study d la? i also need to study wan know. you everyday just only know how to say i no manners. you think you got manners? i jus scold joon stupid only ma. ntg one. ya ya everthin i wrong. all also i wrong! talk also wrong. wanna watch tv also wrong. don wanna go tuition bcos i havin stomache and fever and headache also wrong! you all correct! all mus listen to you! i mix with who my pasal la. everday tel dad the frens i mixed all is wrong de ppl. ya your fuckin boyfren is the best la. fuckin not handsome. whatever man. ccb. who you think you are, judge me. ma de. i don care who will read this post. if you happen to read this, you hav no rights to say anythin bcos this is my blog. not facebook. i don even wanna add you at fb. fuck you. from young til now, you only noe how to make my life miserable. you only think for yourself. even mom said so! you fuckin SELFISH. you only tink how you going to go uk. your A levels result damn ciplak. got D somemore. can go? laowe. eat shit u. and everybody always call me to be patient. sayin no matter how you're my family member. but this time.. you too over d. you've crossed the line. i reli CURSE YOU TO HELL! WO HEN NI!!!!!!!!!! yong yuan dou hui. you made everyone nt happy. you think everyone like u? being so selfish! i guess your boyfren also beh tahan u. have you ever had a best fren who stays by ur side whenever u nid someone? guess u don have bfore! bcos of u, im not happy everyday. i hate u!!! ma de!!!!!! i swear you wil never be happy. you only noe how to curse me. i'm only 16. SO WHAT. don't mess with me... cos i won be the lil kid who confront everythin infront of you anymore. you'll get to feel it, bcos whatever i do frm now onwards, its all behind your back. watch your back. im no longer a kid. you better watch what you say.

2010-08-21T17:23:00.001+08:00

it happened again and again=.=
waitin for your reply, then i check my phone again,
guess what?

"sending to 016........ has failed."

LMAO.

2010-08-21T17:12:00.001+08:00

Don't know why
I'm surrounded every lonely day
When there's got to be no chance for me
My life will end and it doesn't matter how I cry
My tears now are a waste of time
If I turn away am I strong enough to see it through
Go crazy is what I'll do
If I can't have you I don't want nobody baby
If I can't have you oh
If I can't have you I don't want nobody baby
Can't let go
And it doesn't matter how I try
I gave it all so easily To you my love
To dreams that never will come true
My tears now are a waste of time
If I turn away am I strong enough to see it through
Go crazy is what I'll do
If I can't have you I don't want nobody baby
If I can't have you oh
If I can't have you no oh yeaaah
If I can't have you I don't want nobody
If I can't have you oh
If I can't have you oh
Am I strong enough to see it through
If I can't have you

cryin'

2010-08-21T17:06:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A1sRZDMVOkc&feature=related

There was a time
When I was so broken hearted
Love wasn't much of a friend of mine
The tables have turned, yeah
'Cause me and them ways have parted
That kind of love was the killin' kind
Yeah
All I want is someone I can't resist
I know all I need to know by the way that I got kissed

I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin' to forget you
Love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' cause I let you
Do what you do - down on me
Baby
'Cause what you got inside

Ain't where your love should stay
Yeah, our love, sweet love, ain't love
If you give your heart away

I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin' to forget you
Your love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' just to let you
Do what you do what you do down to me,
Baby, baby, baby

I was cryin' when I met you
Now I'm tryin' to forget you
Your love is sweet misery
I was cryin' just to get you
Now I'm dyin' just to let you
Do what you do what you do down to me,
Baby, baby, baby

2010-08-19T23:47:00.001+08:00

surprise of the day,
why did you stopped by just to say hi?
=)

what a day (:

2010-08-19T23:20:00.000+08:00

today's quite of A DAY.
=)

was supposed to go lim teh with emily and phebe,
but end up they fly me a BIG BIG AEROPLANEEEEEE! :'(
guess what?
I waited outside of my school for like, one hour ==
greattttttttt.
luckily, my friends passed by and joke with me. filled me with their sampatness == LOL.
more worst, my best friend came over and made me laugh like hellllllll :D
well. worser, i have to walk to dp myself. since I was SO GOOD tht today that I dont wanna bring phone to sch cause I dislike the feelin of GUILT @@

oh yeah, I walked to dp feelin so devastated, shit.
I bought a dress from Lovely Farm =)

It looks just perfectly, GREAT :D
I ♥ it !

oh yeah, came back home and slept like a pig.
hehehe :P
seriously, had imsonia for like, weeks?
Things have finally slowed down and let me catch up.
I'm happy today =)

2010-08-14T22:31:00.001+08:00

为什么？
我试图否认，你还是我的...
但是..
.我不能再继续...
我爱你太多...
太多了...
你说你要我留下来...
但你是在与他人的关系...
你甚至与她过夜...吻她... 拥抱她...给她的温暖...你应该给我...我太受伤。你不会后悔...
我不会再拿起你的电话...我生病的一切...
你说你爱我...但一切原来是一个谎言已经...你说的一切都是假的前面....但越是假，就越会成为现实..伤害，总是存在的...没有人能够治愈它... 但你...但我让你走了...我不能把它...再见.....

it's too late

2010-08-12T22:17:00.000+08:00

i need you like a heartbeat :'(

you lost me

2010-08-12T21:42:00.000+08:00

I am done, smoking gun
We've lost it all, the love is gone
She has won, now it's no fun
We've lost it all, the love is gone

And we had magic
And this is tragic
You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

I feel like our world's been infected
And somehow you left me neglected
We've found our lives been changed
Babe, you lost me

And we tried, oh how we cried
We lost ourselves, the love has died
And though we tried you can't deny
We're left as shells, we lost the fight

And we had magic
And this is tragic
You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

I feel like our world's been infected
And somehow you left me neglected
We've found our lives been changed
Babe, you lost me

Now I know you're sorry and we were sweet
But you chose lust when you deceived me
And you'll regret it, but it's too late
How can I ever trust you again?

I feel like our world's been infected
And somehow you left me neglected
We've found our lives been changed
Babe, you lost me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9XjZ5KhBCrI

2010-08-10T23:17:00.001+08:00

每次我弹钢琴，我将发挥我的歌为你打...你还记得吗？你还记得我吗？？

2010-08-10T23:15:00.001+08:00

现在，我只能感到我的心已经麻木...您仍然关心，但你说你会开始爱她...为什么？我不是她的与众不同之处？她只是一个怪胎。白痴，但愚蠢的女孩。她说，你就是她的一切...我不相信！现在，剩下的只有我一个脆弱的心...打破...没有可以固定...及其对我来说很难去相信爱一次。谁将会为我一个奇迹？因为你，我偏离太远从侧面行走，为安全起见留...你说，许多人破坏你，但为什么？一切发生的一个原因... ...什么是爱呢？

wadafak

2010-08-06T18:05:00.000+08:00

WHY? whyyyy?? WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wei shen me ni yao li kai!
baby, i would love to get over you cause you already left,
you went missin when I'm dreamin of you ~
If I had you, I would jump sky high.
WOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHH !
durin the day, I look like how I'm supposed to be.
But everytime I tryna slp, its DIFFERENT.
baby baby, i hug the teddy bear you gave me every night ~

Tears.
are the only expression and defination .

you just wouldn't understand when I say ,
I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH,
you're my life </3

but
NOW,
the word IMPOSSIBLE came to ma mind,

yes, finally it came.
AS IF i want it!

yeah, I just realized my BEST FRIEND FOREVER is jealous of everythin i have.
my friends, my fame, my jovialness? the way i talk? the effort i put into everythin I do?!
she's a STUCKED UP BIATCH.
total SORE LOSSERRRRRR.

ONE statement.
YOU, the stucked up, well screwed up girl,

STOP LIVING IN YOUR OWN LIES.

YOU SUCK!

_______________________________________

I can't feel my heart no more.
I once said,
I don't mind... I'm not terrified... I'm not scared of you... I just want your LOVE...
I don't mind of gettin hurt...

sorry, I'm hurt till I'm NUMB!

Can't feel what the feelin of hurt nymore.
I'm takin a break from heartbreakers.

Eventually,

I'd become ONE.

gratz to all who have been lying to me.
wait till KARMA turns around and bite YOU!

exhaustin day =O

2010-07-30T23:01:00.000+08:00

TODAY! yeah, today today today =)
Firstly, I don hell hav da mood to go to sch ! cause i'm freakaainnn tired! yes, TIRED!
EXHAUSTED @_@

This week, I was superbbb busyy. Hell tiring...
Ysterday was my sch's hari Q . didnt feel like going but also feel lazy to lock myself in JAIL [my home]
cause' my house isn't near to town lahh. if only i stay at bandar hilir, ish. XD
not bad la that day. quite funnn i guess... EHHEHH! i was also shocked tht ivy gave me a big, BIG, BIGG SURPRISE ! :D
cause I thought, last week when i asked her whether if she's becomin model or not, she was like,

" NOOO lahh. I don't want"

HAHAH! :D
she looked prettayy ystd (:

OH yeah, today...
I woke up with totaaalllyyy NO mood to study.
its FRIDAY maynnn!
:P

luckily, not much homework lah.
then, after school, I waited for my mom. The time moves like tortoise seriously cause I was thinkin I wanna get home fast to hav some rest before i spend my whole day BOWLING :P

great, just GREAT lohhh. my mom came late.
and my lost dog came back. well, I'm not really sure if it was my lost dog ='(
cause when i came back i just found out its FEMALE not male... T___________________T
fine.
FINE LARH. thought got miracle. ji dan gao LOLOLOL :D

&&
the competition started LATEEEE.

seriously LATE, okay.
I was thr around two thirty ba.
It started around 4? ._.
blah blahh.

OMG @_@
I was thr for about 5 hours.
shitttttttt :P
first time. I think I finally caught the way to strike? I hope? HAHA??!?! XD
and the gurl next lane was superb! she got 3 strikes in a row.
god. freakin pro . ish, ish and ISH XD

Aft the comp, I went for dinner with jo,ching, and yj
Jo went back late . teman her =)
So I went back at around... 9 smtg.
We were like bad pai kia students walkin around da shoppin mall since sch dismiss that kind wei! :P
cause we were wearin sch shirt. HAHAHA!

After such a LOOOOOOOOOOONGGGG and stupid weekend,
I finally get to... " REST "
:D

I still got event tomorrow.

Sch's 317 concert.
Actually, I don't feel like goin tho.
Jus wanna pei my friend (:

OH YEAH.
today's marks.
like shitttttttttttttttttttt. seriously.
my first game was not bad (:
but smtg kinda distract me durin the second game ='(

So my second game scored less 30 marks than my first.
YEAH.
bullshit right?
nevermind.
Don't really matter la.

OMG DAMN.
I think I'm going out now.
AGAIN.
._.

I wonder when can I finally REST secukup-cukupnyaaaaaaaaaaaa.
I hav a feelin tht I'll be sick again.
CRAP lo wei.

I still haven't talk finish yet.
aih. too much things to write about.

sweet dreams <3

2010-07-29T22:50:00.001+08:00

I will bury my egoness with me when I die

2010-07-29T16:55:00.000+08:00

我想握你的手...
会有神迹吗?
我不可以接受了

2010-07-28T22:57:00.000+08:00

its true... we can't just depend on our feelings to do decisions... it might hurt alot... but its just for the best... i don't mind stayin so far away from you, but... you're happy with what you're doin now...

hell

2010-07-28T22:33:00.000+08:00

what's happenin to me lately?
*big sighs*

I never need to ever explain no more.
sucks. just sucks. life's all bullshittttttt.

wadafak la this month. everythin's so crapped up.

pull me a drink, i'll pay you hugs </3

okayyy, i was drunk on my fren's bro's weddin dinner. effin embarassin ._.
sry for the embarssment cuz i was totally DOWN.

great. at this time, with my fuckin condition, i watched He's not that into you today

GREAT. at the WRONG time. i've always wanted to watch that movie. but wtf? watched at the wrong time. btw, thanks to my friends who were there for me until now. thanks to kelly for pei me drunk that night. yeah, we'd totally LOLOLOL the whole situation. our frens laughed at us for being so HIGH?? :D

shit lol. i wanna watch despicable me for quite some time already. my classmates do know how much I craveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee to watch that cartoon ._. niahahahah!

ah shit. ah shit. ji dan gao. wo bu yao qu SCHOOL TOMORROW!
boring sei..
I don't need whatever comfort from anyone la. you all know I just need somebody who had left. but who cares now?! no no, she don't care anymore. STOP thinking . STOP!
you also know you're on my mind al the time. you know it.
i wonder if anyone und my feelin. cos its fuckin complicated.
do you ever know me? don't think anyone took the effort to watch me. don't STALK. i was stalked by few ppl already. ENOOUGHHHHH. tired of ya'll's bullshit because its so annoyin.
I'm gonna club club club with my ex this friday! ARGH. I dont care! ex so what.

2010-07-22T23:19:00.000+08:00

zhuzhu is sleepin :)
Today, I finally can sleep with a smiley heart :')
I think today is the day where things finally go right ! <3<3<3
Never let emotions bring you down .
ily
i always do

2010-07-10T01:06:00.000+08:00

Today, I watched Eclipse already :D

Eclipse's a AWESOMEEEE MOVIE!

[ I never feel like sleepin at all durin da movie altho I was fallin asleep at my feet XD]

2010-07-10T00:54:00.000+08:00

Is TAYLOR SWIFT better than TAYLOR MOMSEN? :O

2010-07-10T00:36:00.000+08:00

OH NO! =O

I suddenly like another artist !

She[ TAYLOR MOMSEN ] is my IDOL ! :DD *for now XD*

2010-07-02T23:50:00.000+08:00

Quote of THE month;

Whaddya WANT?!
=O

Nah! Just kiddin.

I'm like, suddenly so busy. O_O

woot woot~ wo bu yao wo bu yao~
OHH~
I wanna go station 1, forgot ._.

&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&

I forgot I got $$$ crisis atm! SERIOUSLY! T___________T

I wonder why some ppl are so damn, damn astonishly r-i-c-h

yeah yeah yeah~

Cravings of the MONTH;

FIRSTLYYYYY, I wanna buy DSLRRRRR.

[fcuknomoneysomusttrytosaveanddontspendwtf]

Secondly,
I wanna own pretty clothings?
[yeahrightyeahrightyeahrightnotnownotnownotnowwwww]

THIRDLY!!!
[the MOST important :D]

I need to own the GOSSIP GIRL season 3 & 4 cds!

Seriously gotta watch em NOW!

I don't mind not doin homework[LOLL?!] ._.

YEAH! I know I've been screamin ALOT these days O_O
tekanan yg terlebih-lebih *wtf*

I hope I'll have FUNNNNN tomorrow! yeah baby yeahhhhhhh ._.
WAIT!
I'd rather watch gossip girl!
wts T____________T

I think I forgot to mention smtg I wanted to mention earlier.
haish.
NEVERmind
=O

_________________________________________________

Last month's song;

I don't wanna fight no more,
baby I dont know what we're fighting for.

Last month's quote;

Nothing's impossible, just difficult to achieve.

This month's quote;
Almost everythin seems impossible, but i'm tryin to achieve everythin I want with rejecting the word impossible!

2010-06-29T22:41:00.000+08:00

I did, a very VERY huge mistake.
I admit.
I regret to let you go that day.
I'm sorry baby.
we've been through ALOT.
Just by thinkin back bout us,
I can just cry on the spot...
It has been quite a number of nights that I sleep with a broken heart, seriously.
I hope now your heart belongs to me once again...
please don't let go...
I really can't manage it without you a day longer... and yeah I didn't know what have you been thru when we were apart that time. Everyone don't wanna see us tgt, but it don't matter, no... cause I love you <3
honestly, this is the first time I ever felt this way bout someone. Everythin I do reminds me of you, seriously. I know it sounds crazy but even just a glance of you, I can happy till I cry. Only you can make me smile and cry. why? I also don't know why. & there are some several nights... I not only cried... I nearly went insane! its like screamin da hell outta me okay?? That time I cant feel your presence you know. I really hope you would come back to me and never leave again... I shouldn't have listened to others. I really shouldn't. I dont care who you are now, what you did, because ily, really really really i do...

2010-06-26T22:24:00.001+08:00

So many people are watchin Glee.
I still think it hasnt got my attention yet.
don't know why?? :O
just feel its not so nice???

2010-06-26T22:22:00.000+08:00

just watched 90210.
its not as nice as Gossip Girl :D

2010-06-26T21:08:00.000+08:00

i had enough of crying over craps.

2010-06-26T11:52:00.000+08:00

I never really smiled for days already, honestly

2010-06-15T23:42:00.000+08:00

just, SMILE

summer

whaddup??

2010-06-15T23:06:00.000+08:00

Yesterday & TODAY,
yessssssssssssssssssss;
especially TODAY!
I felt like an idiot cryin, cause of heartbroken.
do you know how the hell my family members talk to me these few days?
wadafak yo!
I don't care, hell CARE who is readin my blurg especially this post.
THIS blog is MY BLOG aight?

wo de jia ren. you mei you liang xin de ma? wo zhe you yi ke da jie. hen shi ta dui wo, xiang gui da dao jiang.
ta gen wo jiang hua, xiang wo diu ta you er yi! ta you mei you xiang guo? wo zhi shi yi ke 16 shui de mei mei! ni you mei you liang xin ma? ni ke bu yong mei yi tian jiang zhi he wo shuo hua! hai you,jin tian, wo ku le hen duo. wo fa xian wo hen ku nan. bu xiang zai he ni shuo hua le. wo jue de zhe -family- de ai, jiu shi mei chun zai. zhong xiao dao da, ni you mei you he ren he de ren shuo ma? ni zai ni peng you de jian, xiao wo, hai gen wo cao jia! ni you mei you liang xin ma? wo... bu guan le. wo zhen de mei li chi le. wo bu xiang! wo bu xiang he ni shuo hua le. ni zhen de... gei wo yi ke hen nan de shen huo... zai jian... zai jian... wo jiu shi feel hen empty! yu zhe me yang nerh? you care ah? ru guo ni zhen de guan xin wo de hua, hai you care about my feelin as jie mei, ni jiu bu hui jiang zhi le. wo jue de ni HEN PI BEI!
ni jin tian, curse wo. curse wo qu shi!
hai you, yesterday, ni xiang da wo! hou cai, ba zai na li. ma ye shi. wo, ke yi gen jiang duo ren communicate. jiu shi he ni bu nen!!!!!!!

WED-nes-DAY!

2010-06-10T20:00:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a
fwreakin WEDnesDAYYYYY! :)

I woke up feelin BLUR & also BLANKO? HAHH -__-
Quickly got up and called my friend.
Somebody picked.
But the somebody isn't my friend.
It's her sis. GREATTT.
She said she's in the toilet.
okay,
I waited.
Then I received a msg from her i think?
She said she'll be late??
okay lo.
fyi; her name is ADELE HAN :P
HAHAHAHA don't slaughter me :D
I went to dp without drinkin a drop of water [LOL :D] and absolutely ate nothin for two hours ):
I waited for another friend, ya know... her name is syl :P
Luckily her friend told me they got cheerleadin pracs? I und la.
but I was last minutely informed. T______T

OKAY OKAY;

crappin much :P

I went to school too.
to find yl!
THEN, went to mitc and tun fatimah with the cheerleaders? hehehh.
not bad la. but of course i'm the sesat oneee =O

I went back arouund 7.

[totally like diet-ing yesterday. its not that I don't wanna eat but I dont have the chance to :D]

After that,

went to SKE temple.

It was the last night for FC camp.

Actually went there to find my buddies =)

Honestly I was exhausted by then.

But wanted to play with them mahhhh :D

Had a fun night I guess?

Hope to go yam cha with ah shan and ah ming next week (:

2010-06-10T18:44:00.000+08:00

日日夜夜,
我閉著雙眼祈禱
為什麼只有我的音樂能夠讓我依靠
我知道我的世界已經變得越來越小
跑不掉逃不了
怎樣面帶著微笑
怎麼面對著你才好
怎麼眼淚都在掉
怎麼嘴嘟著好嚴肅
這不是哭著就好
什麼旋律在我的腦袋一直轉一直繞
意志力一直撐著我
再一次禱告
幫助我...

2010-06-03T22:22:00.000+08:00

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeooohhhhhhhhlaaaaaaalaaaaaaaaaaa :P

Yesterday,
was Li Hui's surprise partaayy (:

I didn't know -.-
I was rushin for school.
My mind was like totally BLANKO? O_O?
Cause of HISTORY paper.
gawddd damnfweakin pissed with that paper.
Almost curse the paper. LOL :D

Then, SP suddenly appeared out of nowhere and ask me go celeb :P

wheeeoohhlalaa :D

& yeah! not bad la. hehehe.

HAPPY BELATED BDAY, Li Hui! :D

xxxxxx

I really had countless of nights of not sleepin well! seriously!
wadafak yo :P

Really GONNA scream like psycho tomorrow!!!:D

xxxxx

It's me,
I'm a freak.
But thanks for lovin muaaaa.
You're doin it perfectly

xxxxx

gawdddamnmyt

gonna fly sky high!

the usual crazayness :D

2010-05-21T20:11:00.000+08:00

HELLOOOO! (:

I kinda have that habit of disturbin others.

annoy friends :P

As usual,
I do disturb the back row of my class XD

Me : *touch D's head, kind of hit LOL! oops ;P

D : HEYY! siapa tu?! saje saje touch my head! *shows the normal annoyed look*
Me : ME LO! siapa lagi yang suka kacau orang? HAHAHA
D : *speechless*

WOW.
Then A said,

" YA LA! kamu ar! sentiasa macam tu! crazy betul! HAHA!

Then I went to her and said,
kamu bu shuang mana? *forgot she's malay, HAHAH! :P
THEN!
I go piak her face softly.
HAHAHAHAA guess what?!

She screamed and slap me TEN TIMES HARDER.

GAWD! HAHA!

So,
I went back to my place.
I totally forgot whether teacher's in the class or not.
I don't really care.
Honestly,
I don giva damn.
I dont really wish teachers when teachers came.
I just,

stand and shuddup LOL.

normally,
I won even stand :P
I'm so so soooooooooo, well,
Don know ler.

OKAY.
back to story,
I went back to my place.
I told my sittin partner that A slapped and bully me XD

Then,
I said.

EH! S! do you wanna try?
without her reply,
I slapped her.

HAHAHAHAAHAHAAA!

She super shocked and kind of screamed -...-

then she HIT MY ASSSSS superrrrrr superrrrrrrrrrrr hard.

I can't really sit for quite a moment lo seriously.

LOLLLLL.

Lesson of the month :

Don't bully people anymore! :D

OH YEAH.

Today I curse 5 ppl to suicide infront of them O_O

FOR FUN LAAA :P

cause,
their songs in their phones are like totally followin the updates only,
well,
you know?

yeah you know.

many things happened today.

feel like talkin bout it here but,
nahhh.
gossip much =\

once upon a time

2010-05-19T18:12:00.000+08:00

I never once give a damn about what I really said.

I don't know who is sayin the truth now.

Sometimes its so terrifyin,okay? =\

choose my family? or you?

how can you make me choose this?!

I actually decided to take a break from all these.

That is actually what is happenin right now.

I cannot stand it okay,

when you keep askin questions like?

do you love me?

do you trust me?

why are you treatin me like this?

why I can't feel your existence anymore?

WHAT can I do?!?!!

I also don't know why okay?

How am I supposed to know?

I'm seriously tired of promising stuff of forever,

and end up scribblin my own heart for some kind of what?

promises?

It has been a long time since I finally smile from my heart okay?

I'm sorry but please let me go!

I know its not easy but I really don't know what I should do anymore.

These things happen naturally.

AND

I didn't say goodbye out of a sudden okay.

you know it.

bad, bad, BAD DAY

2010-05-06T18:43:00.000+08:00

I was thinkin bout today

When I reached home, I wanted to online.

Didnt eat breakfast or lunch yet =\

Wanted to eat burger but ate halfway :D

Not halfway, but 1/10 of it to be EXACT!

I took my big apple donut and slowly eat, eat,

Then I looked at the time,

LOLLLL. i was sittin infront of the computer screen for like half an hour.

waiting for it load ><

Distracted, distracted, by today

Ah yesssssssssss;

TODAY!

I had a effin bad sore throat since yesterday,

and couldn't sleep properly last night =\

My mom keep callin me to bring STREPSILS to school

I didn't want to.

Cause I thought by talkin and laughin out LOUD will cure it :D

Durin English period,

I was coughin real badly,

so I took out the strepsils and eat la!

OKAY.

YOU KNOW WHAT?

My OH SO KIND AND CONSIDERATE CLASSMATE,

went to my teacher,

AND

told her,

I ATE IN THE CLASS.

FYI, don't think nobody heard you tellin teacher.

FOR GOD's SAKE!

When I received the demerit slip,

GUESS WHAT was written on it?

It had my NAME on it.

and the TIME! wtf right?

and the kesalahan i MADE in that stupid gawddammyt piece of paper was

EATING IN CLASS.

I was demeritted 20 marks you betch!

well,

EXCUSE me dear prefect,

I don't think takin medicine is a crime!

oh OH OHHH.

Is it written in the rules book?

HA-HA!

and WHAT?

what did you said?

you said that i was taking medicine which is not from the doctor!

oh oh oh OHHH.

I'm so sorry my dear friend,

I'm not as rich as you.

I didn't knew that I have to see the doc whenever I'm sick!

&& I'm so sorry you didnt heard that I was coughin real badly since yesterday!

OOPS! I do not know other medicine to cure sore throat besides STREPSILS!

HAHAHA

I didn't knew that you're so racist all the time!

YOU and your so goooooood friend told teacher

that ya'll already warned us many times since jan?

BUT why da hell I'm the only one who got demeritted?

stop actin like those goodie-two-shoes just so you will get the effin post for prefect board!

._.

2010-05-01T10:30:00.000+08:00

Firstly,

WALAOWEYHHHHHHHHH!

Few days ago,
I was thinkin bout buyin the movie " DATE NIGHT "

AND!
yeah, i don't look like i'm old enough to watch :'(

So i went to the pirated cd shop and buy lurhh.

But when i tried to play the damn movie,
wts ._.

My tv's screen goes dark and bright at the same time O_O
AND then my dvd player gives a hell squeakin sound like its gonna die :P
I thought my TV spoiled.
Then, I thought!

" SEI JOR NERH! My dad would be furious!"

Then I tried to play other cds.
WHAT a relief, seriously :D

Lesson learned : Don't buy pirated cds anymoreeeeeeee!

***

Yesterday was a FRIDAY
& I didn't feel like studyin and i know i won't cause i was blardy tired bla blah blahhh :x

Went out with my best bud (:
LOLLL. The way we talk! HAHAHH, don't wanna talk bout it nerh ;P

I wanna watch many movies ya know!!!
Such as? the NEW TOY STORY MOVIE! :D
& WHEN IN ROME!
&& REMEMBER ME!

&&& KAIJI!

xxx

huh?

2010-04-25T00:55:00.000+08:00

I wonder why so many ppl like to use this reason to backstab or blame each other

" I SAW YOU WROTE IT AT FACEBOOK! "

LAME.

2010-04-10T22:04:00.000+08:00

It's NOT easy.
I feel,
we're movin further and further apart.
It's like,
my existence isn't so.......
REAL
in your life anymore.

I have no choice but to fake my smiles every single day.

:D

2010-04-02T23:37:00.000+08:00

Love links two people together,

then is also the reason that seperates two people

2010-04-01T21:45:00.000+08:00

You said you're going to your friend's house.

at 7.05 pm.

THEN.

I called you for almost thirty times.

you never pick.

you also never reply my msg.

then now you're tellin me you go your friend's house and he/she is teachin you maths?

WHAT YOU MEAN?

STUDY MATHS FOR 3 HOURS NON STOP?

WHO would believe that?

you expect me to BELIEVE THAT?

THEN.

you said your phone was in silent mode.

BUT if you EVER think of me,

you'll sure take out your bloody phone and see right?

at least also once or twice right?

IMPOSSIBLE NEVER.

Don't tell me you won't even check your phone.

or maybe I'm totally not on your mind at all already.

I'm already feelin so fuckin !@#$%%&*

everythin is totally WHAT THE FUCK

2010-04-01T21:38:00.000+08:00

TIRED?

2010-04-01T21:26:00.000+08:00

Can someone tell me,

HOW to show appreciation?

how to show that I care?

how to make things up?

NOW.

I'm writin this post.

Feelin everythin and every bond i have with everyone are almost lost.

Where have I been?

Sleepless nights,

countless hopes,

countless stabs in my heart,

countless disappointments when somebody I thought is who they are,

but they aren't all along.

Being JUDGED.

Being crictisized.

people LIE.

just to defend who they are on the outside.

people judge others,

to make others think they are who others think they are.

ring a ding ding ding

2010-04-01T20:01:00.000+08:00

Somebody's not pickin up her telephone.

T___________________________________T

PICK UP LAHH!

I cannot hear you.

2010-03-13T00:54:00.000+08:00

CELLPHONE.
Sometimes,

I don't wish to touch it at all.

Exceptional that it is one of the ways to contact my baby, friends and take pictures? More like cam-whorin! :DD

Sometimes,
I think its a waste of CASH.

i don't say MONEY

Cash sounds more...
Okay, Idk, I don't care. HAHAH :D

SO NONSEEENSSSEEEEE.
Hehehhhhhh ;P

oh DAYMN !
i have LOADS of homework.
I'm even startin to lose interest in ACCOUNTS already.
DAYMN!

UPDATED! (:

2010-03-13T00:46:00.000+08:00

OEMGEE.
Seriously,
I need to blurt this out right NOW.

uh, LMAO :D

Okay,
back to story.

omgomgomgomgomg.

O_O
I really can't believe my friend is together with,
with,
with,
HER?!?!
OMG.

are you out of your mind?

fyi, i'm not jealous. LOL.

BUT

a girl like HER?
today,
my friend told me about them.

I was like,

ewwww?
that girl is like,
i have NO comment anymore.

HAHAH ;P

i don't know.
and
I don't wanna talk about it anymore.
LOFL
just so exaggeratin.
blahhhhhh :D

I think tribe's production is kind of goood (:

okay,
OKAY

i can't believe that I actually bought c901!!!

AHHHHHHHHH! *screams screams screams*
I was actually thinkin that,

*nehh, my dad won't ever buy me because i just bought 595 a year ago so slaps slaps!* -_-

currently listenin to;

Tonight's gonna be a good good night,

let's go out and smash!

jump on that sofa!

just take it down!

we'll shut it down.

ISH.
Actually,
i DISLIKE that song very very very much.
but now I think it's kinda okay (:

AH.
NEXT!
You spin me right round baby, right round! like a record baby, round round round round!
by Alvin && The Chipmunks :DD

I likey! ;P

Anyway,
Innocence by Avril Lavigne isn't that bad too.
Me likey too.
Crap THAT O_O

OH yeah;
i bought a scarf which I never thought I would buy but YAY! :DDDD!!!!

I LOVEYY <3 it!

Altho it isn't the perfect one I wanted,

*dp don't have what I exactly wanted @.@*

Oh and Daymn that SHOP!
that salesgirl said a stupid scarf which looked like dirty cloth with lotsa colours,
costs around 50 bucks which was so @_@

Yeahhhhh I bought my scarf from AFTERNOON (:

daymn daymn,
I've got lotsa things to say =\

P/S : Is this an UPDATE, RINS? :D

Uhh.
I really hope this holiday can finally give me time to breathe!

feelin' so HAPPY :]

2010-02-25T21:13:00.000+08:00

SOMEONE finally got me a domokun!
*actually,two! :D
YAAAAAAYYYYYY!!!

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

The most stupid-est thing I've done today :

first

I watched CSI! :D

second

I watched a stupid taiwan movie -____-

third

I watched American Idol !

fourth

I watched The House Bunny O_O
fifth
I watched Hitz channel

I say i've done somethin stupid
because I watched ALL at the SAME time!
*bangs head on the wall*

In the End,
I never get to watch every show properly.

I'm just too excited

i'm just too excited

i'm just too excited ahhhhhhhhhh wtf O_O

FORGET THAT!

Tomorrow's a HOLIDAYYY baybeeeeee!
i'm so effin tired right now
and i'm too excited to sleep -____-

ISH.
Actually, it's not even a HOLIDAY.
~~It's actually someone important in malaysia bla bla bla bla bla blaaaaaa's burffdayy.~~
I don't CAREE LAH!

i just wanna oi oi ;P

____________________________________________________________________________

&& for the first time,
I found out,
I actually like lion dance but I'm ~~terrified~~ not really terrified of it!
;P

_______________________________________________________________________________

Some people are just weird.
Just W-E-I-R-D;
seriously.

NO COMMENT O_O

_____________________________________________________________________________

Damn myself.
I haven't finish up yesterday's homework.
OMG
i haven't study yet. for my test.
OMG
i haven't buy puccho.
OMG

i haven't rest since morning.

-______________-
i'm just exaggeratin ;P
nyahahahahahhhhhhh :D

irritated. pissed. annoyed.

2010-02-18T14:20:00.000+08:00

What THEEEE.

I haven't started doin my blardyy homework.
I haven't started to enjoy my holz
NO I DIDNT
=\

Who says under 18 can't go clubbin?
wtff LOL.
DAMN rules.

Ol' shweet m'cca is so sibeh hawt =\
so so so feeeeel like goin to dreambox and sing like there's no tomorrow.
AH fml .

Damn school. I don't wanna study nymore.
LOLL

Ysterday ;
went to cinema and watched VALENTINE'S DAY.

wanted to sing at dreambox but ppl fang wo fei qi.
LAME. LAME ; LAME :'(

Today was a fairytale,
today was a fairytale,

LOL. Taylor swift acted like so so so lebih laaa inside ;P

In real life,
is she?

is there magic in the air?
is it the way you kissed me?

If you play,
take a gun and count to ten ;P
ISH.

damn my crapness.

IF only you can read my mind,
................

phones? I WANT ONE :D

2010-02-18T14:06:00.000+08:00

@.@

This is c901!

I WANNA BUY!

not for me. but somebody :D

when can I?

I NEED shoppin sprees!

2010-02-12T22:22:00.000+08:00

OMFG

2 more days!
its CNY!!!!

-______-

I need that white CARDIGAN.
FGS, I really need it :'(

I've been a SICKO physically for around 3 days already. pfft ;P not mentally. HAHAHAH :D

Less than HALF of my classmates came to school today. The so called 3 hours of damn sh*t ceramah was like around less than half hour nia. OKAYY that was stupppppiaddd.

I thought we'll be like FREE to do anythin we want.

but?

Form 4 teachers will never let us go ;'(

*look on the bright side*
we can STUDY! since our TEST is cominnnnn

-____-

*smacks my head*

I hope I can go to Ivy's hommie tomorrow . . .

Maybe I can't make it.

Maybe I can.

Maybe I can't?

Maybe I can...

Nahh,

Maybe I can't...

Maybe I can..............

SIGH.
being sick physically has also...

DENG DENG DENG.

affected my mental health. FML LAHH. LOL :D

L-O-V-E?

2010-02-07T23:26:00.000+08:00

AH!

I WANT ANG POW!!!

all i want is MONEY. wtf HAHA

*forget that*

I WANT DOMOKUN!

ivy i want domokun!!!
eh don wan ivy give la.
BABYYYY I WANT DOMOKUN!

go dp find!!! so many, you dare to say dont have or cannot find, i'll chop off your head! oops =P

wheeeeeeeeeeee heh heh heh...

valentine's day is coming.. hohohoho
cny is coming.. hohohohohohohoooooooo

P/S : I can't believe you wanna share celebrating vday with me. sampat. save money? HAHAHA ROFL la wei.

crapssss

2010-01-17T00:40:00.000+08:00

pigu bugi
bububuuuuuuuuu

boooooooooooboooo

boooooooooooooo

bleeeeeeee

bleeeeeeeeee

bleh!

bluuuuuu

blaaaaaaaaa

blibbbbbbb

blobbbbbbb

buuuuuuuuuu

P/S ; I'm boredd and I MISS YOU BABY <3
P.P.S : I hope you'll give me surprise again! :D

2010-01-17T00:23:00.000+08:00

ALOHA 2010

aka

ALOOOOOOOOOHAAA! chemis, physics, add maths -___-

AH i'm back in IJC again!

Good also tho.

'Cause I'll be missin ivy, delea, my lil' godsis and more. hahah :D

I think I'll stay hiatus and kind of invisible this year . . .

Don't feel like havin so much activities anymore.

Heck,
add maths add maths! psychotically crazy effin twistin!

omgomgomg!

2009-12-31T00:39:00.000+08:00

eeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkk

TOMORROW is the last day of 2009!

I'm kinda anxious and wondering what would my 2010 year would be like?

During my 2009 year,

January?

I had quite some time suffocating with the teachers of form 3. LOLLLL.

was worried cos i didn't studied yet :P

February?

I don't really remember...

OH! stupid blind date for valentine's wtf

And i went to thailand, yeah.

March? 

Oopssayy i totally forgot.

April?

same. forgotten.

May?

-__________-

June?

Heck, i forgot!

Oh now i remembered! This was the stupidest month i should say. Meetin some losers who twisted my life until 2 weeks ago then they stopped coz i screwed them!!

LOLLL nyahahahah! :D

July?

wth i forgotttttt -_______-

August?

I don't know. -___________________________-

September?

SIGH. this was the month i became emotional. LOL.

and my birthday was celebrated with all my godsis! well, almost all.

October?

damn damn damn damn damn damn damn damn PMR.

[ i hate my result omfg ]

November?

HOLIDAYSSSSSSS!

i spent money like a shopaholic @.@

and i think i went out everyday?

Oh, and i entered the uhhh.. LCC! :D

December! 

december is coming to an end! i had lotsa fun this month.

Lookin forward to 2010 to enjoy my life better :D

too much to post about LOL >.<

2009-12-26T01:33:00.000+08:00

a very big HELLO!!!

(:

OMG seriously,
i have TOO MUCH to post about.

erm erm erm erm . . .

* Mhs Graduation Night

* I-Night

* Outings?

* Christmas Eve

* Err... My thoughts? [ nahh. its boring. haha]

* And PMR result day -.-

I totally hate my result.
not dislike but hate!

gonna post many pictures up. but lazy la wei. HAHA

AND!

Merry Xmas && Happy Birthday to my childhood friend, MANDY OOI!

happy sweet 15th.

hope everything will turn out fine for you!

LOVE YA ALOT! (:

untitled

2009-12-24T02:09:00.000+08:00

Hmm..
i went to mhs graduation night.
and installation night too.
will update bout that later.

sibeh no mood la weii now.. .

yeah i'm anxious for my result.
but now,
feel so moodless.
feeling neutral.
don't understand certain stuffs.

not anxious anymore.

2009-12-18T03:59:00.000+08:00

I am in a peace state of mind now!

awhh i just wanna relaxxxx and chillaxxxxxx

i♥youbaby,

i'm lovin critical levels :P

2009-12-18T03:47:00.000+08:00

I LOVE my criminal.

_______________________________________________

I looked so 'qian da'

Don't you feel like slappin me? :P

________________________________________________________

Awwhh

walk, walk, fashion baby,

work it, move that bitch, crazzayyy

I want your love, and i want your revenge.

I'm in a bad romance

love can conquer whatever it might takes

2009-12-13T03:47:00.000+08:00

now's 3.13 a.m

today is 13 dec 2009.

It should be a happy day.

but it turned out to be the day i've always wanted to avoid the most

_________________________________________________________________________

I don't know what is happening to me anymore.

callin ivy in the middle of the night to calm myself and stop my tears from flowing.

luckily she's not like other ppl.
luckily she's not that type of ppl that see me as emo and crazy

i'm not crazy.

i just want things to be alright.

i just want things to be back to normal.

is that too much to ask for?

is that too much?

I won't take sleeping pills anymore as i promised you, wh, reuben, ys, ivy and aaron edi

to whoever who are reading this,
i don't care how you look at me.
this is what i feel.
this is my blog.

yes i'm emotional at times because i'm human.

i'm not like other ppl who have perfect lives.

i'm not like other ppl who have so many ppl to count on even when they're just a lil sad.

i'm not self pitying.

i'm just explaining the fact.

now, i even think i'm crazy d.

if only i can write chinese,

i would have written all these in chinese to explain my feelings clearer and better.

maybe i have a bad temper.

yeah i do but i've always tried to control it since i love you

i've tried many ways.

uncountable ways to change myself to a better person for you

but you said you're not good enough for me.

why?
i thought you said " perfect born in lover's eyes "

if you love someone,
the imperfect person may look totally perfect for you because you love them.

is love a very hard feeling to accept ma?

i thought love is kind and caring.

you said you take promises seriously and will never break them
now you're saying you're sorry and you've decided to break them

if you knew this was going to happen,

i hope you wouldn't give me such high hopes till i can't see what's infront of me besides you

everyone may call me a dumbass for loving a person i should not love.

but sorry to everyone, i chose to love this person.

__________________________________________________________________________

today,

before you came,

i talked to a new friend i made today.

i asked her

" Whoa, you're quite old already. Don't you have a boyfriend? "

She shooked her head.

" Nah. I don't feel like having one. Haha. I used to have one last time. We spent every single day together.

We were classmates. During school hours, we hang out everywhere together. After school, he'll come over to my place and we'll have lunch together and do homework till around 10 to 11 pm only he'll go back "

me?*shocked*
" Wow, then why isn't he with you now? "

her

" Well, he kinda dumped me. Maybe because I didn't really give him some space "

Then I told her,
" Its alright to love someone but we're having our own life too. Example, you have a interest in dancing. But he complained that you didn't really spent time with him. So, you let go your career and give all your time to him. But one day, he suddenly break off with you. And. you're done. Hmmm.. I wouldn't want that to happen to me. Altho I said that love should not affect our lives but I can't deny it wouldn't affect mine. Maybe I gave my love to the max "

Yes, we're too young for love.
Yes, we're too immature to stable our relationship

Yes, we're too young to think about all these

Yes, we're childish and may frequently fight.

That might hurt ourself in the end.

but i don't care.

_________________________________________________________________________

And I thought maybe my sis would understand me.
She said that what she's doing is all just for my own good.
Yes, i trust that but,

I have feelings too.

Actually i'm weaker than i look.

And I actually thought at last everything started to be alright.

From the beginning i typed this post,
my tears never stop flowing.

Since 1 i already started.

This feeling is ain't no different than the feeling which we call ;

disappointed.

weird cravings

2009-12-03T00:29:00.000+08:00

recently,
i have weird cravings in the middle of the night! @.@!

OMGG
suddenly,
the smell of KFC came out,
suddenly,
the smell of kimchi came out,
or maybe,
sushi?
or maybe ice cream?
or maybe the smell of i dont know what but it smells nice.
HAHA!

once,
i controlled myself to NOT enter KFC.
but..........

haha.
cannot la.
MUST enter.
when i finally bought what i wanted,
i was SMILING TO MYSELF wth

didnt knew that food can make me happy too. hehe

你的回话凌乱着

2009-12-02T01:50:00.000+08:00

情绪摸名地拉扯...
我还爱你呢?
假装没事了..

爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
真的痛了
怎么了
你累了
我懂了
不说了

那些爱过的感觉都太深刻我都还记得
要怎么停呢

爱我别走

2009-12-02T01:45:00.000+08:00

我到了这个时候还是一样
夜里的寂寞容易叫人悲伤
我不敢想的太多
因为我一个人

迎面而光的月光拉长身影
走在漫无目的的街
我没有你的消息
因为我在想你

爱我别走

如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔

————————————————–
就在今晚抹去对方的肯定

夜里的寂寞容易叫人悲伤

我没有你的消息

因为我一个人

迎面而光的月光拉长身影

一个人走在漫无目的的街

我没有你的消息

因为我在想你

爱我别走

如果你说你不爱我

不要听见你真的说出口

再给我一点温柔

my whole world is turning upside down

2009-12-02T01:22:00.000+08:00

I'm so sad la really.
what the hell.
everything is like so wrong.
i need a break.

firstly,
what is wrong laaa weiii....
this is how you treat me? fine. fine. fine...
i'm quietly slippin away from your life. it's so obvious that everyone knows it. if you don't feel it, you are obviously not a human LOL.
now you say its regarding to the uc.
hell NO! i did NOT put my personal problems in uc.
hell shuddup and stop saying im so immature.
you said we have no problem. then you say now the problem is ME.
do you know what you've said?
you said that
I'm TOO IMMATURE to say things.
so now am i saying things?
not only me felt that.
others felt it too.
we just kept quiet.
kept it to ourselves maybe because we think that we think too much and kinda sensitive.
but NO! it came out to be true.
whenever you say something, make you sure you do it.
but slowly,
i feel the way you treat me.. is not right at all.
i thought bout this OVER a BILLION times already.
every people have their limit. i have mine too.
you also have yours.
but i never betrayed you.
never.
ever.
you said the problem is ME. okay lo.
me??!
you said i think too much. simply think.
haha. LOL!
i dont wanna say much.
i hope you wil change.

secondly,
wtf la.
another problem.
you're too mentally selfish
your lover have to talk to you you you you you and YOU ONLY.
is that wrong that i'm your lover's good friend?
is that wrong? you tell me la which part is wrong!
i'm just advicing you in a serious way cos i want you to realize your lover is hurt,
not only hurt,
stupidly HURT by you.
suffered so much.
cried so much.
because of your pessimistic attitude.
what type of crap man.
i cannot stand it.
i will say out wan.
esp when the victim is my good friend
now my friendship and hers has almost ended because of your childish pessimistic attitude.
thank you la wei.

third!
you say im the most important person for you
since march till now... we are quite close.
but
i'm not your lover.
please.
you are saying i accused you for treatin me very special? hahahaha!
well well,
i dont know what you are thinking.
yes i am very busy.
not i dont wanna layan or care bout you
i care bout you but you ended up being childish like others too.
i thought you wil be more understanding than others.
i have so many things to take care of.
my life isnt bout msging only you ok.

fourth!
what the heck!
whenever you want something
you'll only come and find me.
you've changed la.
i dont put any hopes on you ad...

fifth!
i feel like dead.

thanks to these people.

i will never forget and will appreciate it.

DAMN!

FINALLY!

2009-11-28T15:22:00.000+08:00

Oh yeahhh finally I've came back LOL.

i know i had not been updating my blog since like almost one month ago. who cares? XP

yesterday was the LCC!
and my band got third!

WHOA! that's kinda surprising but

YES, I was hell shocked!
&
I kept thinkin bout someone who talks like a gossip girl ! p/s: pls dont kill me even if you feel like you need it! haha

LOLLL :D

and her friend is TOTAL MADNESS.

even when i thought about how she laughed, i'll be smilin and laughing to myself OMG .

and i was quite disappointed that many ppl didnt go yesterday,
they SHOULD! but they were up to something-else-idk-what.

AND
to this someone who thinks she's the perfect person in the whole wide world,

you are NOT perfect. don't think everyone will like you because of your innocent face. as if you are.
don't think i dont know you lied to me about someone i care ALOT. and you made her felt she's not right anymore.
you're not supposed to be whoever you are to me now.
you've always stepped into my daily activities without realizin i didnt called you to come so.
i've always been pissed at YOU since my BIRTHDAY!
hell i dont think you'll come and celebrate my birthday if those two didnt came.
you think i don't know anything about you?
i forgave you a billion times already.
so what if i'm younger than you.
altho i'm a very straight forward person,
i don't even wanna tell you this straight to your face because i know you might cause some ARGUMENTS, FIGHTS and MISUNDERSTANDINGS AGAIN
i'm so effin sick of your whatever crap okay.
please shut up and go.

updatexx.

2009-11-07T02:26:00.000+08:00

It's 2.18 a.m now.
And i just reached home,
lawl.
i think these few people are gettin on my nerves.
It's like...

Hello?! Don't be so obsessed and bring your damn damn damn scriptures around?

-.- I'm damn pissed you see.

I thought of releasin stress when I'm in KL.
I even thought livin in KL for a week can let me have some peace!

vice versa. i'm like rottin right now. being controlled? oh yesssssssssss baby,

even tho had the chance to meet a few ppl,
but,
our meetin was like...

totally NOT how we planned .

everythin was a rush/////////////////////// :-/

hectic life. pissed? YEAH!

updatexx:

ILessThanThreeYou.

give me your emails if you wanna read :D

disturbia convers! HAHA! korean fc? O.o

2009-10-27T22:01:00.000+08:00

i'm effin bored.
BOREDOM -.-
was waitin for smtg and then....

here comes tze vin. HAHA xP

[c=21][s]Tze Vin[/s][/c=0] says:
like amber??
lol

psychoticrazyinsanehappy.com says:
YES LO!!!!
AHAHAAA

[c=21][s]Tze Vin[/s][/c=0] says:
omg
yea she quite sat
can speak eng kor and chinese very fluent

psychoticrazyinsanehappy.com says:
THATS WHY LA!!!!
omg
so so so so ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i like fx d
omg
no nononoooooooooooo
korean stuffs again!!

[c=21][s]Tze Vin[/s][/c=0] says:
lol
swt

psychoticrazyinsanehappy.com says:
u like fx anot
omg
i hav been listenin to lachata for da WHOLE DAY
mad d

[c=21][s]Tze Vin[/s][/c=0] says:
lol
siao
okok la
i like all kpop wan

psychoticrazyinsanehappy.com says:
so sat nerh!

[c=21][s]Tze Vin[/s][/c=0] says:
u can feel free to ask me any korean quest

psychoticrazyinsanehappy.com says:
amber!!!

[c=21][s]Tze Vin[/s][/c=0] says:
ahahah

psychoticrazyinsanehappy.com says:
HAHAHAHAA
omg omg omg og
u going sch tomrrow
and
i like DONG HAE AND RYEO WOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
from suju
awwwwww
so sattttttttt
keke

[c=21][s]Tze Vin[/s][/c=0] says:
erm nt going
haih
is it jia yi tell u wan??
bout suju

psychoticrazyinsanehappy.com says:
no why~
hahaha

[c=21][s]Tze Vin[/s][/c=0] says:
nola
she also like both of them
haih
dunno why u all wont like other member wan lo
they both not sat and nt funny wan

psychoticrazyinsanehappy.com says:
ryeo wook and dong hae!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i like LEE TEUK AND KIBUM TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
omg
KIBUM is the BEST

[c=21][s]Tze Vin[/s][/c=0] says:
YESUNG & EUNHYUK 4EVA!!!!!

psychoticrazyinsanehappy.com says:
yuck
piuk

[c=21][s]Tze Vin[/s][/c=0] says:
WAT

psychoticrazyinsanehappy.com says:
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAA
niaahahahaha
neninenibubu!!

[c=21][s]Tze Vin[/s][/c=0] says:
ur kibum lagi lebih
everytime nt with suju wan

psychoticrazyinsanehappy.com says:
warao
i don care
he very cute ar
yesung
NO WAY
GELI SIA

[c=21][s]Tze Vin[/s][/c=0] says:
so queit wan
quiet kibum

psychoticrazyinsanehappy.com says:
neninenibubu!

[c=21][s]Tze Vin[/s][/c=0] says:
eh yesung is cute

psychoticrazyinsanehappy.com says:
wai
*wait
i go see his pic again
haha

[c=21][s]Tze Vin[/s][/c=0] says:
n have sood sense of humour
good

psychoticrazyinsanehappy.com says:
ok lo
sorry sorry was signed out
haha
weyh!!
so busy lookin at your yesung pics
bluek

[c=21][s]Tze Vin[/s][/c=0] says:
lol

psychoticrazyinsanehappy.com says:
yer
tze vin is a bad girl

[c=21][s]Tze Vin[/s][/c=0] says:
wat??

psychoticrazyinsanehappy.com says:
hehe
tze vin is a bad girl
tze vin is a bad girl
wahahahahahahaha

[c=21][s]Tze Vin[/s][/c=0] says:
watever

psychoticrazyinsanehappy.com says:
haha

tze vin is annoyed

by ME!
HAHA

[c=21][s]Tze Vin[/s][/c=0] says:
im not
lol

hehe. so kia lang when i get bored. huhu i dont wanna go school tomorrow!! :'(

P/S : yesung is not handsome! not suai enough. right, jia yi?! support me k!!! :D

lazy lazy lazy

2009-10-27T18:10:00.000+08:00

should've posted like 3 posts already.
but
im just to lazehhh
LOFL

I love my bear bear . haha :D

Jay Chou!

2009-10-23T10:40:00.000+08:00

Zhou Jie Lun!

Whoa~

I started to like Jay's songs since i was around 10 or 11. dont really remember :D
Altho many ppl are sayin that he's ugly and whatsoever i dont care.

he still ROCKS!

better than that farenheit LOFL. no offence to farenheit's fans but i think Jay's music are wayyy much better.
he's a legend. wahaha ><
is he that not nice lookin? NAHH.

my itunes is all full of his songs! wootwoot xD

2009-10-21T20:38:00.000+08:00

I tried to be perfect,
But nothing was worth it,
I don’t believe it makes me real.
I thought it’d be easy,
But no one believes me,
I meant all the things I said.

[Chorus]
If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.

This place is so empty,
My thoughts are so tempting,
I don’t know how it got so bad.
Sometimes it’s so crazy,
That nothing can save me,
But it’s the only thing that I have.

(On my own!)

I tried to be perfect,
It just wasn't worth it,
Nothing could ever be so wrong.
It’s hard to believe me,
It never gets easy,
I guess I knew that all along.

WHOA!

2009-10-20T22:30:00.000+08:00

Since thurs,

went jammin with my new band :D

on the day of audition itself,
i was at Nadeje with bi
then,

* DENG DENG DENG *

[[ received a phone call from kor]]

kor : Where are you? QUICK COME! NOW! our turn ar NOW!

me : [shocked] HAH!? now??! Okay! i come now!!

then,
straight away left bi behind and ran to ice :'(

well, i was very happy that we've made it. YEAH!!!

met lots of new friends these days. almost everyday know new friends ar..haha

oh yeah . .

TODAY,
durin the trip to factories...
had a shockin sudden gastric ar.
my teachers sent me to hospital somemore. HAHA
when i reached there,
guess what.

EN. SAHAR knows my dad

OMFG LOFL .

wont be going to school tomorrow laa.
feel like travellin now. i wanna go to new york!

that's one of my top ratin in my travellin list :D

wheee heheheee i think i should download o2jam to play ar. but hor. . . already so busy lidat. later bi complain. huhu :'(

OMFG I OWN FREEDOM xD

2009-10-14T00:01:00.000+08:00

Firstly,

OMFGGG!

HELLLLL YEAH!

Freedom is finally here.

Well well.. not really but.. who cares la. PMR is OVER. ish. PMR shoo shoo!

What i have now is anythin i wanna do and do whatever i like with whoever i like xD

Sorry darl was ~~super~~ late today :'(

I had a really relaxedddd day.
It had been a reallyyyy loooong time since i can feel what i felt today.

WHOA reli like.. WHOAA OMG. hahahah

&&

the weird thing was..

i was the FIRST to came out and run out and jumped and screamed after da exam.

HAHA.

when i reached my sch porch, was erm.. ~~hell~~ shocked cos nobody's there.
i looked behind then.. luckily saw few ppl came out d..

phew. i thought i was over excited or what till run out like some crazy girl won some lottery? YESHH my reaction was totally smtg lidat. haha

Okay larhh gotta do smtg d. later my godsis bising sia~
later she'll nag nag nag nag nag nag nag smtg like this : Mei ar.. quick practise la!! this sunday arr!!

hehe.
I finally can sleep well too. NO MORE *kin torture.

P/S : its so fire burnin fire burnin. im your lighter you're my assassin. kissy kissy bang bang.

miracle day. haha

2009-09-26T00:09:00.000+08:00

i have mood to study back! yipeeee! HAHA. LOLLL :D
well well..these days i bet im outta my mind.. don have mood to study, maybe it's because of my birthday ba.too excited i think. lawl
ish. imissyou again. what should i do? fly there? SIGH.
i will lend you my shoulder when you're tired.
i will find you no matter how far you run.i promise.
i know im an impatient person.but i will be patient for you

i dont sound like i have sense anymore. LOLLL ahahah
Love is in the air yo.

omg. i reli do sound like i dont have any sense anymore. PMR is comin. im still dreamin? mygod. nononooo
wellwell..i will still be very awake no matter what happens. PMR PMR PMR!! you better be ready for me!
jiayu jiayu!

P/S : I reallyyyy wanted to delete this post but someone dont let. sheesh. grrr XP

i dont want to find another love nymore.

2009-09-20T14:37:00.001+08:00

i can feel you're just desperate.
dont push me away when you dont want to.
ish.
miss you. <3

I LOVE 19/9!

2009-09-20T14:29:00.000+08:00

Yesterday,
my godsis came and fetch me.
thought we would just loiter like nothin-to-do ppl around dp.
haha
it turned out to be kinda fun tho. hahas
was surprised to see many new shops opened.
ah. we went to the newly-opened A&W!
haha i missed the rootbeer float so so much! haha!
then someone called. only vy jie knows. haha xD
so funny maynnn that time.
then papan lapis aka the lameo aka da one who said my stomach is soft! hahahaa neninenibububuuu .
wanted to go watch movie but, aiya........ they..... :'(
nvm.
ahaha.
then went to buy bubble tea. i bought strawberry one. but went back havin a bad stomachache. mad wan. stupid stupid. shouldnt hav drank.
afta that went to da beach. hahaha we saw............ haha only we know what we saw. haha so Zzzz la.
i felt very relieved and happy yesterday. until now also im still happy. haha.
altho i ffk-ed my cousin and 3 or 4 friends. huhu i miss you all too but we'l meet on wed k?
hahaa.
i hope both of you wil be bak tgt like you two used to. because there's where i start with you two, too.
i bet you two know who you are.

maybe im tired

2009-09-12T23:02:00.000+08:00

my mind is blanko right now .
just blank.
i dont feel lyk studyin at all rite now . but havta study larh . ..
is ppl too irritatin me or im just frustrated . ?
tired of waitin cos i've waited before.
tired of persuadin ppl cos i'd persuaded ppl like psycho before.
tired of worryin bout stuffs that i used to worry before cos now i think its so wu liao.
tired of holdin on promises which i don tend to break but ppl are breakin mine so i also break larh. for what be so loyal . sometimes i tink better not be so loyal cz other ppl don seem to care after they found someone new?
tired of promisin oth ppl. so sien.
im just so sien so sien so sien so sien!

i feel there's somethin is seriously lost in my life but i don kno what. its presence in my life is important. i know its important but i don kno wut da hell is that @.@

damn sick of listenin to The CLimb but it can represent my life . LOL

SIEN AR wei

I don know what da hell but i guess its FATE ;)

2009-08-28T22:46:00.000+08:00

I should have posted this a few days ago. but...
its never too late la, i guess? :D
haha.
urm, about a week ago..
i was chattin with D(can't be mentioned LOL haha)
then i finally found out that his gf is MANDY OOI! ( one of my random childhood friends!)
SUPRISINGLY but yet TRUE!
i haven't talked to her for AGES.
at first, our reaction were..
OMG! mandyyyyy!!!
and hers was.. HUAY SHAN!!!
hahaha :D i jus couldn't forget it. so funny lar.
then i knew that she's currently studyin in NDC right now.
missed her... ALOT. yes, i miss you! XD

ookay. this is what she posted in her blog ;) so happy to read it. AWwww.... ;P

Here goes :

Fate is funny sometimes. It lets you meet people, then seperate you and them, then links you back together when you are least expecting it.

I checked my friendster a few days ago. Someone named "Huay Shan" wanted to add me. But, as some of you know, I don't add people I don't know, even if its my friend's friend or something. Anyways, I looked at this girl's profile. And found out that Danny also added her as a friend. So I asked him about this girl. All he told me was she is this form 3 girl whom he met at camp.

Last night, or rather early this morning (hehe..) I was talking to Danny on MSN (as usual). Suddenly he told me that one of his friends said to him " I know who your girlfriend is, in fact, I known her for years." He told me that girl's name was Huay Shan, the same girl who wanted to add me on my friendster.

And suddenly, it strucked me. This girl was the girl I used to learn organ with. I started to learn organ at the age of 6 and at that time there were 3 of us namely me, Huay Shan and Li Lee learning at the same place. Until when I was 9 or 10 years old, I stopped learning organ there as I found out my neighbour was an organ teacher too. So I learned organ from her till now.

I never had any contact with 2 of these girls since that day I stopped my organ classes at that old place. Till now... I really can't belive it, after all these years, I actually talked to her. OMG... I seriously can't believe it. And whats funny is I actually got to meet her through Danny. hehehe...So i guess it was fate after all.

Fate brought us together, teared us apart, and let us meet together again.

But fate, I wana ask you, why let me meet her through Danny? haha... This is the only thing I don't really understand. LOLX >.<

I was very touched then! haha!
Thank you lord for givin' me a chance to me and her:D

ffk ppl and got ffk-ed back XD

2009-08-27T22:27:00.000+08:00

HAaahhhHhhh...

At last had some gud night sleep. haha :D

seriously i had some problems with sleepin!?!?
cant sleep. i don know why. lol...

woke up late today!

so many msgs i received since i slept. haha includin 2 missed calls.
suddenly nisse and shinyee can go jalan d.
wohoooo! hahaha! XD
sorry to both of you ar..
i reached late. haha.
we watched UP.
damn it. very funny lerh!
shinyee so cute lar. she laugh no sound wan. hahahaa. pls don kill me when you read this. XP

afta that we went out freezin. hehe. then went to eat. jalan... lidat lor.
supposed to go heng ann play badminton with potato chips. but i awkward with her friends la. she thinks i ffk-ed her. woot. hmm.
monkey and sotong also ffk me lar. before that, on tues.... 6 ppl ffk-ed me too LOL :D
don know wanna go poolin tomorrow anot. feel sien. sien sien sien.
today i feel so annoyed with many ppl. i don know why. just annoyed.

My Plans! ahh!

2009-08-21T22:18:00.000+08:00

These are actually my plans for TODAY

1. supposed to go bowlin with a few ppl but failed to go cos im kinda grounded cause of H1N1 ( can you believe it?!)
2. go to GSC to watch G.I.Joe: The Rise Of the Cobra ! ( same reason. grr... )
3. go jonker! ( same reason again and again )
4. celebrate friend's bday! ( same reasonnnnn )
5. going shoppin! ( i hate you H1N1)

i reli reli hope this H1N1 thing will go away as fast as possible! i reli mean it! i cant do anythin with it around! and the papers are sayin Melaka is the worst state in Malaysia for havin H1N1? AHHH!!
my mom just doesn't let me to go outttt..
even if i can, ( if im lucky enough to persuade my mom and dad!) i must wear the uglaayy mask. O.O

i wanna go party party party!

2009-08-21T22:03:00.000+08:00

i wanna go partying right now..
wanna go..
~~cravin cravinnn...~~

hahaha! yes la, alot ppl said that i'm wild. stubborn. love to waste money. love to jalan.
i hav no idea about it but maybe its true but i just love it . pfft XD

rather than stucked at home. rottin at home stucked beneath some disturbin books?
waitin for somethin to happen.?!
just cant get those ppl who just stay in the house for the whooooooolleeee entire week waiting for mummy and daddy to bring them out!
no offence but my life is definitely not like that.

NEVER!
muahaha. sorry. just speakin out loud.
actually its good also lah. . . study.. erm... nah.... hahaha.. study ok la. but..

sit at home and become rotten??
are you out of your mind?
go outing with friends once every 4 or 5 months?

ahh! i am deadd by then. heehee.

P.S : I'm grounded. crap it. grr..
P.P.S : Im lackin of ka-ching! someone give me $$$!!!

happy happy =D

2009-08-09T01:34:00.000+08:00

Hehe..
I feel so relieved after everythin's over now.. i hope . . .

YESH.
relieved and happy.
=)
cant believe i changed againnn

but

im all better now lar. hahas.
will control myself to say those unexpected words from my mouth.
to potato chips and rabbit, i bet you know what lar. hahaha XP

cant believe i trusted you i think. lol. i hope i can say - your love is so cheap - right in your face LOL . hahaha i got supporter tooo =P

oh ya .

gonna jiayu for trial. countdown 8 days

feelinnn nervousssss .

Homosapien's 1909 Concert!!!

2009-05-28T22:05:00.000+08:00

Holidays are here!

Exam is Over!

Its Time to ReLease Stress!!

So...

Who wanna go to Homosapien's 1909 concert?

its On...

19th June.

at Pay Teck Hall

By MMU,

Normal SEats - 10 Bucks

VIP seats - 20 Bucks

PLs dO contAct mE for thE tics ya!! ^^

a blast a blast! XD

2009-04-30T23:24:00.001+08:00

Omygawdd.

=X

shud have posted this post a looong time ago

but too busy lar.
hahas.

On 24th April,
after school,

went to big apple.
LOL
saw M

actually, i wanted to say this to your friends know.

why lar you all so kepo? laowe.

hahaha! i know im evilish. but

who cares? luckily i didnt give your friends any evilish look of mine also. wahahah!

but i kesiannnn you lar.

uh.. urm...

i kno got bullied by

deng deng deng~

M-E ~ lah!

haha after walkin here and there,
meet up with my cuzzie yo,

went to a cafe,

what lar.

the D guy, (my expression was like.. LOL. why la this guy? dont know how to talk mer?) hahaha!

M also another one.
mouth terbocor

i straight away no face to face ppl edi wei!

so men-sasui-kan! herh! haha XP

after that,
went gsc
watch that..

that...
alar.. that movie again~ watch before edi~
nvm lar. teman cousin watch. haha

if i continue somemore, sure i blah until cannot blah edi lar. haha
straight away go to mm night

Oh,
at pingming,

Whoa-whoa-whoa!

no tic for P to go in,
guilty wei! until now i also guilty. wahaha!

torture oh.

luckily i used some so-called-magic-trick
or not
sure you stand outside until finish de. hahaha

dont wanna cont edi le. will cont at my priiiivateee blog then ;D

i reli ♥ all these X)

2009-03-06T22:45:00.000+08:00

♥ billabong
♥ club monaco
♥ dressed to nine
♥ dressy collection
♥ eq:iq
♥ esprit
♥ forever 21
♥ goss:ps
♥ miss selfridge
♥ mng
♥ replay
♥ disagual

hahahaha!